第12章 童话

第12章 童话

这是我写的第一篇“童话”，或许这样归类会显得残忍，而现状恐怕更为残忍。从显性看，猫咪死于停泊车启动时的事件挑战了人性中善的绝对高度和对世界运转的控制力；从隐形看，此等不应当频发的事件将从无形的角度升温，最终成为一场颠覆错误的瘟疫。或许只有这样才能使人从自己想当然的安逸中回到平等来，看清楚自己并没有权力剥夺另一个生命生存的机会。

为此，我觉得咨询师能做的还很有限，事实上，人们被训练成只看“法说不能做的部分”并且伺机在没有说的宽阔领域内做不道德的事。这就像孩子逃脱妈妈的管束，使自己处于危险当中。深感恐惧之余，我想起了丹麦的童话大师，或许他当时，也和我一样，决定将不可说的写出来。

Slow， slow the Wheels

Eisa

“They’re faster than us.”The little boy cat said to his Mum.

“If you want to hold it back to our circle, you need to die for this.”

“No, I am not going to die for anything.” The boy was shaking his head.

“In that case, I will do it. “ Mum said maybe also to herself with no emotional turmoil.

“Harney, the vehicle will do more harm to us if we could not stop the wheels. “

“Who cares, I just want my lunch and supper per day, Mum. That’s not too much, you know.“

“Yes, but we are CAT. ” Mum was teaching her little son a lesson.

“We’re all angels from heaven, remember? I know that it used to be the bird, but they fail to be with human, right?”

“Er…seem like that.”

“It’s our turns to show the kindness of God.” Mum said, raising her chin with no anger or sorrow.

“No, Mum, you make me confused! How could it be? It’s not kindness to hurt or being hurt.”

“The man-mades need a soul.” Mum smiles to her love son.

“A soul?”

“Yeah, like what in you or me.”

“But only the God can make it in, isn’t it?”

“Yes, my little. After my death, you can be it.”

“No, I can not.” The cat boy was shouting to his mother anxiously.

“Don’t be kidding me, Mum. We’re normal and live normal, so that we don’t have to do anything unnormal, right? Have you forgotten what my grandmother said to us before she died?”

“I’m more than happy to have you remember her saying.”

“Why not you?”

“It’s my turn now, I give my word to you my dear son, what you say after my death will be definite truth. ”

“Ok, I’ll say, be with me.” The boy said with a playful smile.

“Whatever you say from your heart will be true.”

“Mum, I know you have been worn out because of the frequent death of the cats under the wheels. Maybe, you just need to take it easy and forget all those — so called responsibilities.”

The mother cat seemed not listening to her son, actually, she fell to the darkness of those loss——she didn’t tell her son, not all the cats can go to heaven, most of them stay in the darkness, until someone recognizes them and take them back to. Now she is willing to be the guide.

At first, she has to be a ghost.

And happenings after will depends on her son’s own decision.

For three weeks, the mother cat lie under the wheels waiting for her big day, full of courage and fears. The emotional conflict makes her pain and almost ready to quite. But she feel shame, recalling those little one’s face, so she insists.

By the end of the fifth week, a very little cat is hiding himself under the back left wheel when the mother cat sees the car is starting the engine.

“No-go——” The mother cat charges towards him and drives him away from the car wheel and replace with her own body.

The car could not discover the accident as usual.

Clattering… Mother cat provides a bigger “Stone” to the human to roll over.

“Mum——”The cat boy screams from his heart.

“Don’t go, wherever…heaven or hell.” The boy is getting clear about the life, comes and goes.

Please stay with us. The boy makes his decision.

Mother is smiling softly and gently, floating in the empty.

“you told me that the vehicles should be back to the circle, so please be their sole, mother.

The boy is growing up when he gives this blessing.

Yes, he is the God, mainstay.

慢些，慢些轮子

Eisa

“它们比我们跑得快。”小猫对妈妈说。

“如果你想把它们归入我们的循环，你就必须为此而死。”

“不，我不会为任何事情而死。”男孩摇着头。

“如果那样的话，我会做自己该做的事。”猫妈妈的话也许也是对自己说的，里面没有情绪波动。

“亲爱的，如果我们不能停止车轮，汽车会对族群造成更大的伤害。”

“谁在乎呢，妈妈，我每天只想吃午饭和晚饭。你知道，这并不过分。”

“是的，但我们是‘猫’。”妈妈正在教训她的小儿子。

“我们都是来自天堂的天使，记得吗？我知道这责任曾经是鸟担当，但它们毕竟没有和人类黏在一起，对吧？”

“呃…看起来像那样。”

“轮到我们来表现上帝的仁慈了。”妈妈说，没有生气也没有悲伤却抬起下巴。

“不，妈妈，你让我困惑！怎么可能呢？伤害或被伤害都不是善意的。”

“人造的存在需要一个灵魂。”妈妈对她心爱的儿子微笑。

“一个灵魂？”

“是的，就像你或我心里的那一样。”

“但只有上帝才能办到，不是吗？”

“是的，我的孩子。在我死后，你可以成为它。”

“不，我不能。”猫娃焦急地对妈妈喊道。

“别开玩笑，妈妈。我们很正常，生活也很正常，这样我们就不必做任何不正常的事情，对吧？你忘了我奶奶去世前对我们说的话了吗？”

“我非常高兴你还记得她的话。”

“你为什么不呢？”

“现在轮到我了，我向你保证，亲爱的儿子，我死后你所说的将是绝对的事实。”

“好吧，我会说，和我在一起。”男孩顽皮地笑着说。

“无论你发自内心地说了什么，都是真实的。”

“妈妈，我知道你已经筋疲力尽了，因为车轮下的猫经常死亡。也许，你只需要放松，忘记所有这些所谓的责任。”

猫妈妈似乎不听儿子的话，实际上，她陷入了那些失落的黑暗中——她没有告诉儿子，并不是所有的猫都能上天堂，它们大多继续遗失在黑暗中，直到有人认出它们并把它们带回来。现在她愿意做这个向导。

第一步，她得变成一个幽灵。

在这之后的事情取决于她儿子自己的决定。

三个星期以来，猫妈妈一直躺在轮子下等待她的大日子，充满勇气和恐惧。情感上的冲突让她感到痛苦，有几次几乎放弃。但每当此时，她会感到羞愧，回忆起那些小家伙生动的小脸，她坚持着等待不知何时到来的机会。

第五周结束时，一只非常小的猫躲在一辆车的左后轮下，这时猫妈妈看到那辆车正在启动发动机。

“不行----”猫妈妈冲向它，把它从车轮下赶走，换上自己的身体。

嘣咚一声，汽车像往常那样没能发现事故。

猫妈妈的身躯提供了一块更大的“石头”让人类从那上面碾了过去。

“妈妈----”猫娃发自内心地尖叫。

“不要去任何地方…天堂或地狱。”男孩对生活越来越清楚，关于来和去。

“请和我们待在一起。”男孩做出决定。

母亲轻轻地微笑着，漂浮在空虚中。

“你告诉我，车辆应该回到圆圈里，所以请做它们灵魂的母亲。

当这个男孩送上祝福的时候，他正在长大。

是的，他是上帝，叫做擎天柱。

原文写了1700多字，为了凑足一章，写了引文，措辞介于童话和写实之间，算是过渡。我猜美好的童话在它产生的时候，写作的人的心情都不太美好，甚至还可以说有些恶劣。希望因为童话的产生，使世界变得纯洁。这篇故事不止是在所谓地“吐槽”人们发动汽车不检查“夹带”问题的现状，而且试着猜测了猫咪“明知山有虎却向虎山行”的心理活动。万物有灵，是句“take it for granted”的类真理。现在可能不是这样，于是我们通过童话的渲染，终于知道一个有灵生物体是如何串联新的生命，使灵，如同神经网络，经过那个人为的“身体”——汽车。

在科学的眼中更多的是如同孩子一般的思维：“我可以做到什么超过想象的事。”仿佛所有的“屁股”都有别人来擦，谁呢？科学和投资人以外的所有人。有的人认为擦的应该是管理者，其实不是，是所有非管理者。

而非管理者失去了管理能力，对所有的苦难唯有接受，因为接受了，总拒绝进步。这是苦难本身要传递的讯息。直到有人能“串联”所有，希望那个明知道后果却让别人承担的人从历史车轮的阴影中走出来，跟他说一句：嘿，车子要发动了，你确定还要躲在暗处吗？